an illusion - a poem in malay

It wont do me any justice if I don’t write anything in the other language im very much at home…. So here it goes…


Ia hanya sebuah ilusi…
suatu dunia yg penuh indah…
tidak ada pilu, hiba..
namun kenyataan menanti..
ia tersergam di pintu hati

Memori lama…
dikala ia datang tak berundang..
menghanyut jiwa ke alam yg tidak pasti..
hilang tetiba keindahan tadi..
mencipta tanggisan di hati..

Jendela hati mengupas perasaan
di bumi nyata yg ku pijak
cubaku menganjak diri.
namun ia makin serasi
aku dan pilu….ia wujud di diri

Gerimis pagi..
mengeruh suasana
keindahan lama yang pergi
lambaian derita di jendela waktu
ceria yg ingin ku cari..

Padaku ia hanya sebuah emosi
yang pasti akan datang dan pergi
sebuah ilusi…
yang telah sebati….
ia adalah aku...sebahagian dariku…

aso.

It makes sense...or does it?

When you get out of the habit of listening, the voice of Divine Spirit becomes weaker and weaker. Not because It is speaking in a quieter voice, but because you have turned down the volume control on the inner instrument of Soul.
— Sri Harold KlempThe Language of Soul


It comes to my sense the other day. How wrong I was to be judgmental. I failed to practice what I preach. The recent changes that took place in my life and the way I went forward to handle it, as I see it now. It is much clearer now. Things always happen for a reason. There are no mistakes in life’s plan. Only grasping the sudden change of events is the toughest moment..

Those who are outside looking inside.. it always shows things differently. Change is something not many prepared to accept. Time and events make things change. Acceptance of things the way they are the best way to handle change. But how many of us could do that.

Here with also I would like to make things right of what could be wrong. Someone pointed that how can I be judgmental without getting the facts right and how well do I know a person to come up with such conclusion. Feeling hurt by another persons conduct without even knowing the reasons of such happening. Being the sensitive nature I’m, ( Which poet isn’t eh..) sometime I feel I may have overreacted towards things. I would like to apologize if ever indirectly or directly, by being sensitive , I have shown my insensitivity.


That’s for now.
Aso.

Inspiration, seize it

Happiness is not a matter of how your outer life appears to someone else. Happiness is a state of consciousness.
—Harold KlempThe Language of Soul


Seizing An Inspiration

Sensing a dream unfolding…
slowly feeling a moment of joy….
an inspiration has born…
the touch of fate..
or mere rare occurrence..
presence of feeling ..absence of thought…
an illusion it may seem…
yet the realm is very much felt..
from no where it came
a void being felt…
loneliness is emotions of past..
will it stay, will it last…? ??
the joy will still be felt…
no matter how short the joy is..
the magic will be enjoyed
as long as it last..
words flow, beautiful all over..
hope, joy, smiles, dream on I will….

ASO D’ HORRIBLE(17/1/05)

This is for u Lorrrs.

A good old friend of mine lost her husband recently. I know how it feels to lost someone close.

The two recent tragedies in my life is a living proof of it. Not many people know i lost my sis in law on 30th oct 2004. She died after delivering a baby boy..her 3rd. She was just 32.. And on 3rd. Jan 2005 I lost my eldest nephew on a road accident. His 20th birthday supposed to be on 9th Jan.

I am never good in offering condolence and i know wont help u much. But do know u can always count on me.

Just be strong. U have always been one, Lorrs.

Herewith I paste yr email :-

"Hello everyone...

It is with deep sorrow that I tell you at this time of my wonderful husband, Robert Joseph Wedepohl's passing.
Rob passed away rather peacefully about 4:45 AM Monday morning, June 27, 2005 at the Greenville Health Care facility in Greenville, MO.
His visitation begins this evening at 5:30 PM at the Ruegg Funeral Home in Greenville, MO. The hours are from 5:30 until 9:00 PM.
The funeral is tomorrow, June 29 at 1:00 in the afternoon, also from the Ruegg Funeral Home in Greenville, MO.
Interment is at the Rockwell Cemetery, Patterson, MO.
Rob was 79 years of age ~ we have been married 53 years this past January 5, 2005 ~ and we have two wonderful children, Michael Joseph Wedepohl and Rebecca Anne Warden.
We have 4 grandchildren: Teresa Bernard (and her husband, Dustin) ~ Chris Warden (and his wife, Stephanie) ~ Ryan Michael Wedepohl and Robert (Alexander) Wedepohl.

I want to thank you all for your love and prayers for Rob, myself and our family. They are very much appreciated ~ now and in the future, also.
All take care and God Bless my wonderful internet family and friends.
With much love,
Loretta "